Borderline Personality Disorder isn’t being cute and ‘clingy’ and ‘adorably needy’. Being with (romantic or otherwise) someone with BPD isn’t akin to taking care of a pet. BPD isn’t an ‘aw it’s so endearing that they need me so badly’ type of thing.
BPD is a mental illness that is a conglomeration of several different tendencies and it’s not easy to diagnose. You don’t just decide you have it, just like you don’t decide you’re depressed because you had a bad day, or you don’t decide you’re bipolar because your mood changes quickly sometimes. Believe me, you don’t want it.
BPD is turning nothing into everything, is knowing you’re being irrational and not being able to stop regardless, is suppressing breakdowns for fear of being abusive or of manipulating the person you’re talking to into having to take care of you when they really don’t want to.
It’s thinking someone doesn’t care about you anymore because they made a new friend. It’s automatically registering new people as a threat. It’s a fear of abandonment and rejection that’s damn near omnipresent. It’s being able to shift from ‘I love you so much!’ to ‘I don’t give a fuck, I hate you, I don’t even want to talk to you’ and back at the drop of a hat.
It’s finding identity in a drastic hair change, and then feeling unsafe and desperately trying to fix it before you have to go out. It’s seeing someone you adore and trying to emulate them because you have no idea who you are. It’s waking up and trying to be a new person every day. Go vegan, go goth, go hipster, go glamour, cut your hair, change your makeup, gain weight, lose weight, and never feel quite there. Ever.
It’s comprehending ‘love’ as ‘pity’ and wanting to rip yourself apart if their tone is all too casual when your friend or love interest is returning compliments or affection. It’s regretting saying anything about your mood and desperately trying to turn the conversation around while simultaneously NEEDING to get it out. It’s wanting to bleed yourself dry as opposed to cry in someone’s arms because, at least then, they don’t have to clean your wounds for you. They won’t hate you. They won’t be annoyed.
It’s the constant battle, every time you get upset, of, “Is this worth being sad about? Is it worth talking about? What is more abusive, talking about this or hiding it? If I tell them I’ll bring them down and I’ll guilt trip them and they will resent me and it will all be my fault. If I don’t, I’m a disgusting liar, I’m manipulative, I’m untrustworthy.”
It’s wondering if you’re faking your symptoms. It’s disassociating and feeling like a ghost for days. It’s feeling like you aren’t real, and then wishing you weren’t. It’s fear, a lack of self, and about a million different thoughts running through your head at all times. It’s trying to live for the people you love as opposed to yourself. It’s feeling suicidal and then feeling bad for feeling suicidal because, whoops, you’re being manipulative.
It was announced that Netflix is gonna do a live action version of Avatar the Last Airbrnder so I’d like to voice just one simple casting request.
The Boulder!
Played by The Rock!
YES
The Rock was supposed to voice the Boulder, but he was too busy, so his friend and tag partner Mick “Mankind” Foley, did the voice, and basically was impersonating The Rock.
the fact that community colleges are seen as less valid and for “stupid” people is a result of classism and in this essay I will-
ppl in the tags saying that it’s “genuinely a lesser tier of education because people go there for trades and nursing and thats about it” are just proving that its classism. bc a) no thats absolutely not correct. a good chunk of people that go to community colleges do so to knock out their gen eds at a lower price than they’d be if they went to a four year, then transfer to a four year. and more importantly b) trade professions are not lesser than other professions that take higher degrees. people who go into things that take associates degrees are not “stupid”.
if you think ppl who are too poor to attend a four year university for all four years, or that ppl who are too poor to/don’t want to get their bachelor’s/master’s/doctorate are “stupid” then i have news for you:
thats classism, babe
We have a winner!
Community Colleges (and Trade Schools) are super fucking valid, and if you think they’re “lesser education” or for “stupid people”, Kindly fuck yourself with a cactus.
Hey everyone! I created a short survey to try and determine the general population’s thoughts on the inclusion of intersex individuals in the LGBTQ+ community. It would be awesome if you could take it!
You do not need to be intersex or in the LGBTQ+ community to take this poll. The general findings is not to make a decision on if intersex individuals should be included, but to simply gain a better understanding of people, different demographics, and their opinions.
*Please note that all answers are anonymous and any answer you give cannot be tracked back to you.
**If there are any mistakes or issues please let me know. I intend to make a newer survey in the next few months after I receive some feedback. I had a few people look it over before posting but I understand that there may be issues. At the end of the survey there is a box to put suggestions.
If you’re a fan of PDFs and would like a more extensive version or would like to support me making more comics, I put on Gumroad!
The PDF is 18
pages total and in addition to the comic it has process images such as
thumbnail sketches, rough penciled comic pages, character study sketches
and cover art process images.
Infectious Desire 